7-7-7.
The First 7.
God's complete number multiplied in my life. It has been 7 months since my gastric bypass surgery. I have lost 102 pounds and have gained an incredible amount of confidence and security in knowing who I am in Jesus through this time. I have discovered a lot of who I was before I gained the weight and with that, also discovered why I gained the weight. God is so incredibly patient and faithful. The mysteries of the world He would show us if we would just take the time to seek Him and ask Him. So that is what I did. I found myself asking the following 7 questions.
The Second 7.
1. Who am I in you God?
Through prayer and fasting I received the following.....
You are my beautiful daughter. Amazingly made and fashioned in my image. In you I see someone who will love my people. Who will extend herself to those around you and give unselfishly to bring me glory. You are my chosen. My worker in a ready to harvest field of people that I love so dearly. I created you to be creative so that you can catch peoples attention in their hectic life and get permission from them to share the greatest story ever told. You are my compassion to a hopeless, love starved world and my creativity to world that lacks purpose. You are worth the greatest gift, My son. I see you in all you do. I am with you when you are crying for the lost and hurting and rejoicing over you as you seek me. You are my child. My daughter, whom I love.
2. What is my purpose?
( God spoke to me one morning while I was in devotion...)
I have never taken your calling or purpose away. I instilled you a dream and vision to evangelize and take back the arts. My arts that I created and enjoy. You gave up on your dream and your thoughts led you to a place of void and disaster. With out vision my people parish. When you left your food addiction take hold of your life you traded in your dreams for a life of unhappiness and depression. It is those dreams inside of you, the gifts and talents I gave you that drive you toward me. It is your creative expression that unites you and I in the spirit. I am at one with you when you dance. Others need to experience me like this, Others need to see how I dance with you. Your purpose is to use dance to bring others to me. Teaching others and showing others this side of me.
3. Why do I feel so unworthy?
God proceeded to show me that all the great men and women of faith in the bible felt unworthy and were. There was not one perfect among them yet by faith (Hebrew 11) they stepped out and followed God. Feeling are a human thing that often is bound in our flesh. We need to break away from the trap of following out feelings and allow the holy spirit to guide our thought. Instead of developing our inner man, our Ego or Id, we need to develop our spiritual man.
4. How can I be a better......
daughter to you Lord....
Meet with me daily and listen to me with an obedient heart.
wife to Jeremiah...
Remember that I have created you for him and he for you. Encourage him and build him up. Be supportive of his dreams and visions and know that they are from me. Keep your home a place of love and do away with contentious behavior. Love him unconditionally like I do you.
mother to Sam and Zion....
Patience. Just as I have waited for you to grow and mature, taking time to hold you and teach you, do the same for them. They are my precious ones. I have entrusted them to you for this time to train them and raise them up in my ways so that they will know me. I have great plans for them.
Leader of leaders...
This you need much work on. Serve others. Serve them regardless of how they treat you. Love them regardless of what they speak about you. Teach them how to be selfless and deeply care about them so they will recognize me in you.
5.When will I understand your timing and favor?
You may never understand but you will learn to appreciate that I am in control and know the order of the universe. You work out of your own ability to much and lack the desire to wait on me. Look to Jeremiah to establish your pace. Feverishly you work with out my favor because I have not called you to that work. Rely on my and I will not remove my face from you.
6. Am I growing in you Lord?
Being completely transparent with the world I have to admit that I feel like I am so infantile. I should be so much farther in my faith than what I am. I hunger so deeply for the Lord and yet I miss it so many times. Teach me Lord. I want to grow. I want to know and I want to show others more about you.
7. When do I most make you happy God?
Although I like it when you are dancing with me or singing with me, loving your husband through me or blessing your children in my name, you make me most happy when you spend time in my word and talk to me. I love you. I want to fellowship with you so you will know me more.
The last 7.
There are 7 days in a week. My goal is to meet with the Lord at least 7 minutes a day for 7 days a week for the next 7 weeks. A great habit that will totally change my life. I challenge everyone reading this to do the same. Pass it on and see what God does in our nation! Only He can change us. Only He can heal us.